Something not right

I feel something not right but I don't know what is it

Everytime I feel sad just like now

Now I do feel anger and sad in the same time

and then I started whisper a song..

with no melody

Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die

Sorrow in my heart

My eyes started to fill with tear

~I need her~

Blood

I do experience before that I split out Blood from my mouth

I still remember that was my first semester of diploma in UCSI

Quite amount of blood

But after the blood, I fainted in the toilet

I think that was quite funny life experience

Cos before I fainted , I could hear my heart voice very loud and my view started to become blur

In the moment , I started to refresh everything in my life

feel like is the time for me to pass away

leave this sad place...



But for now

I not feel like leaving this place awhile

Cos now there was

Someone I appreciate

Someone appreciate me

Someone I need

someone that needed me

But I can tell you that she was someone that make my life feel wonderful

~I love you~


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little talk here: I do say something worst, but before that re-think properly , do that worth for making all this? my friend?

Passion kiss

Everything until now

I wont care so much for what happen recently

what I care now is only You

At here, I wanna let you know

how much I miss you and love you

~A poem will do~

Everytime I say I love you

I'm really trying to say so much more than those three little words.

I'm trying to say you mean more to me than anyone else in the world.

I'm trying to let you know that I adore you and that I cherish the time we spend together.

I'm trying to explain that I want you and that

I need you and that I get lost in wonderful thoughts every time I think about you.

And each time I whisper "I love you",

I'm trying to remind you that you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Dream of walking in ....

Yesterday I was dream about I holding hand with a girl

slowly slowly hearing the music started and walk into the church

Do that a dream???

I definitely feel that is was really real, maybe is my other six sense



What situation was my dream?

I will tell you that was my marriage day

I couldn't see clear enough the girl face but one thing for sure

that she very fair(white) and quite tall

I feel DAmm happy that i dont wanna wake up from my dream

I always keep one promise.. the date of 12/12/2012..



I DEFINITELY will HOLD the promise..( my serious face)

My girl friend look like

When you ask me how my girl friend look like?

I will answer you

that she look like in between MIho (田中美保) and (仲里依紗)

田中美保






仲里依紗





Do you all feel Jealous now?

Quite true if you saw it yourself
Believe it!!!

A place for me and you

There will be a place Even in night, the light will always on for us

There will be Just only Us, standing under the night sky

Holding hand and I will stand close to you

Through that time

I will whisper beside your ear

Tell you

I Love You

Share

I hope you wont mind

I hope you wont scared of me

I hope you will feel comfortable with me

I hope you share everything with me...

I wearing A glass mask

I may look like hold a strong spirit
but inside me was empty

I'm someone that easy Jealous

I'm envy of how other people treating their partner
I'm envy of how other people care their partner

I'm envy of how of my friend and their partner having good well
I'm envy of other couple can see each when they want

AND

I'm Totally Jealous and Envy
Seeing someone I love by caring other people more than me...



Sometime I just hug myself and warm it

I think I have a glass Mask
because I easy show up my expression

since glass mask was fragile
please handle me with more careful

But I try to put on the mask again and again
Because I was scared to show my feeling out

I may cry
I may sad
I may angry

But I was hoping I always have a smile face in-front of you
So I put on my mask again and again



A Glass MASk

HOld

I always hoping I can hold a trust toward you

Sometime I couldn't trusted you due to some problem

Sometime I was scared or afraid that everything sound too peaceful

Sometime I wonder that what was you do behind me

Sometime I thinking of what was on your mind



ME to you

You can trusted me

I will hold your hand

let you follow my step

to any place I go

Warm

I feel freezing

And what I just hope is more warm



if you feel cold

I will do the same also

that the way of caring each other



Hope everyone have their own relying place to warm yourself !!!!!

I hope I find one that nice 2...

Peaceful

I think I get what I want from yesterday

A peaceful night

I do feel peaceful

but inside my heart

I feel lonely.....

My first time at full house

It sure surprise me about the out look of full house
The full house was located at 牛车水 to be pronounced named as Niu Ze Xui (NZX)

The first step that I step inside , I heard all the waiter and waitress greet with "환영합니다" mean "welcome", sound like ~han yo ha sei yo~ I think

Finally my friend wanna sit outside due to some... hehe
you know I know...



First I Never see such menu before, for me it more look like magazine than a menu
Ya, indeed that was a special in some way



I quite stun after looking inside the menu because it teach us how to cook as well
beside that it have some comic in it



Ya, I have order a mushroom soup and rip eye beef steak
for drink I order Tea.. ~Lavender tea~ smell good





After the food, if you ask me what good about full house
I will answer you : it was a good place to take picture but not food

The decoration of full house was quite special in some way
I think if better come with couple because there playing those oldies song Love song
I quite like it













The place isn't easy to locate, so refer to the map below:



Anyway I really hope can come again but that time is with her



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EXTRA

Today was a special day for me and her
-My 21st birthday
-and already 3 month

I was thinking to online today with her
but it seem.......................
(I hate when I think too much)

~I sad on the day of my birthday~

That why I say
I don't like celebrate my birthday
because it never satisfied me.

Way back to love

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Anyway I do feel like "WAy back to love"... : )

What I hate the most...

WhaT I hate the most

is BEING LOOK down by other people

MAybe now I was nothing

But dont forgot that

There still a long way

FOR ME......................

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Vow out: I Quite hate being compare with other people
but within the compare, I could make myself up to the mountain.
~That the way of successs~

Do I look stupid for you all?

Sometime I did stupid thing and action too

because it quite fun and enjoy while doing it

~STUPID SOUND FUN~

Trust me !!!!

DONT LOOK SMART or Act smARt....

Celebration of 21st birthday

When people ask me what I want and how I celebrate my birthday

I will say

I want a peaceful night

and I not going celebrate at all.

Anyway if got any present wanna give it to me or wanna celebrate

You can be done through direct or in-direct as well

Direct

pass it to me

bring me go out

spend the day and treat me all

In-direct

ask for my home address and deliver it

Ask for my account number and transfer money to my account

that All I think

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Vow out: I do wanna celebrate with friend but I just dont like treating people or entertain..

Sugar.....

I think I really need more sugar

I couldn't stand for long bitter

Maybe I will pour my coffee into the sink if it still taste worst

Night view through my window

That night

I view out window and look upon the black clear sky.

something goes cross my mind

I started to understand that

To love is to risk not being loved in return.

To hope is to risk pain.

To try is to risk failure

but risk must be taken because greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing

Do I Now taking one of risk "TO TRUST"

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I started to keep in silent....

Me as a secret boyfriend to my girl

Me as a secret boyfriend to my girl

Everything keep as secret from family or friend

have to cover my face , identity

I hoping such day will be end soon

I Not really like being some secret boyfriend

Maybe got alot reason behind

I think one of the reason is

she really mind how other people look on her BF

As I'm not good , not wealth , not handsome

I think nowadays girl do demand for those thing.

Cool right?

Feel secret... haha

NO hUG is so hard

People do say "New thing" come on the "new year"

But for me still the same as always

and the same sad day for me

I thinking everything will change but it seem till goes for the same flow



And I do feel that I like a

CACTUS ...